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    The boat that rocked

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    A boat, guys and a lesbian, music, radio, drug, alcohol, party...balabala.........
     
    Roch and roll.
     
    Just watch it and find yourself in music.

    电影-091002-091003

    一包烟,一壶铁观音(据说可以帮助排出尼古丁),几部电影:
    《消防犬-Firehouse Dog》
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    我向开不拒绝任何关于狗的电影,即使是部烂片。
     
    剧情没什么好说的,我想谁看了头5分钟都能猜到结尾。
     
    PS. 1. 最近我家的狗的数量上升到了历史性的13条。
         2. 昨天我遛了琪琪将近三个小时,或者说,我被他拖了将近三个小时。
            结果是,我们两个都崩溃了。
         3. 如果电影里的那条狗是英雄,那我的琪琪就是个流氓。
     
     《控制--Control》
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    Do you wanna sleep with another man?
    What?
    Do you wanna sleep with another man?
    That's a strange question.
    Because if you did,  you will be ok, I will be ok.
    Do you been serious? When you say things like that make me feel you don't love any more.
    I think I do.
     
    他是孤独的,一向如此。
    他自闭。
    他很早的结婚,生子,却发现更加孤独。
    癫痫,使他成为药品的实验品,也最终带走了他。
     
    即使是他的音乐。

    第一章 老屋

    他记得那是栋大房子。
     
    三层楼,每层有并排的三个大房间和一个平台。后来改造过一次,将平台加大了。
    一楼用来排机器,在门口搭了个小棚子,用来晚上看场的时候睡觉。
    机器的轰鸣声很大,以至于他听不到自己说话的声音。所以,他很少在一楼逗留。
    二楼东间是厨房,正屋是吃饭的地方,靠着窗有张老桌子,雕花的那种。西面的房间,他已经忘了是用来干吗的了。
    他很喜欢二楼,从窗子外可以看到门前的小路,路的那头是稻田,夏天的时候,很清爽的感觉。
    所有的窗户都是木制雕花的,记得那时候爷爷来帮我们涂上一层透明的柒,这样可以在很久以后,仍然保持那种光泽。
    可能是从这个时候开始,他对木制的东西,有了种特殊的感情。
    三楼的东面是卧室,有张大床和一张钢丝床。他不记得是睡在那张床上了,可能是大床吧。
    打开窗子,视野比二楼要好很多,可以看见城市中的点点灯火。
    西屋是他不敢去的,因为据说闹鬼。但是后来东屋装修时,一家人只能搬去西屋。
    西屋里有许多老的东西,比如漆木的首饰盒,老式的台钟,这些大概都是父母结婚时的东西吧。
     
    改造之前,三楼的平台很小,而且是露天的,没有栏杆,感觉非常危险。
    改造以后变成了一个大阳台,那时的他总是够不到新造的围栏。
    有一次他试图将阳台放满水,变成一个游泳池。
     
    老屋,6岁以后,他就没有再回去住过。
    但这里每个角落,都是回忆。

    修的故事--序

    他终于开始咆哮起来。
     
    他感觉到天旋地转,脑子像快要炸开一样,汗水夹杂着泪水。
     
    他吼着,嘶哑的嗓子。
     
    “为什么?! 你满意了?!”
     
     

    人生十大戒律---by Teresa

    1.人都是毫无逻辑、不讲道理、以自我为中心的。但还是要爱他们。

    2.你如果行善事,人们会说你必定是出于自私的隐秘动机,但还是要行善事。

    3.你如果成功,得到的会是假朋友和真敌人。但还是要成功。

    4.你今天所行的善事,明天就会被人忘记。但还是要行善事。

    5.坦诚待人使你容易受伤害。但还是要坦诚待人。
     
    6.思想最博大的最大的人,可能会被头脑最狭隘的最小的人击倒。但还是要志存高远。

    7.人们喜欢无名小卒,却只追随大人物。但还是要为几个无名小卒而斗争。

    8.你穷数年之功建设起来的东西可能在一夜之间就被毁掉,但还是要建设。

    9.人们的确需要帮助,但当你真的帮助他们的时候,他们可能会攻击你。但还是要帮助他人。

    10.当你把最宝贵的东西献给世界时,你会被反咬一口。但还是要把最宝贵的东西献给世界。

    脚印

     
    我在幻想。
     
    海边,沙滩,海浪,泡沫,风。
     
    阳光很猛,我不得不戴上眼镜,所以,你看不到我眼中的暧昧。
     
    脱掉鞋子,沙子如婴儿的皮肤。
     
    目光所及,世界的边缘。
     
    我躺下,你在远方。
     
     
     

    Mini Clubman S

     
     
    1.6L 双涡轮增压
    128千瓦/175马力
    0~100km 加速:7.8秒
     
     
    正在载入...

    When you're gone

    i always needed time on my own
    i never thought
    i'd need you there when i cried

    and the days feel like years
    when i'm alone
    and the bed where you lie
    is made up on your side

    when you walk away
    i count the steps that you take
    do you see how much i need you right now?

    when you're gone
    the pieces of my heart
    are missing you
    when you're gone
    the face i came to know
    is missing too
    when you're gone
    the words i need to hear
    to always get me through the day
    and make it ok
    i miss you

    i never felt this way before
    everything that i do
    reminds me of you

    and the clothes you left
    are lyin' on the floor
    and they smell just like you
    i love the things that you do

    when you walk away
    i count the steps that you take
    do you see how much
    i need you right now?

    when you're gone
    the pieces of my heart
    are missing you
    when you're gone
    the face i came to know
    is missing too
    when you're gone
    the words i need to hear
    to always get me through the day
    and make it ok
    i miss you

    we were meant for each other
    i keep forever
    i know we were

    all i ever wanted was for you to know
    everything i do i give my heart and soul
    i can hardly breathe
    i need to feel you here with me
    yeah

    when you're gone
    the pieces of my heart are missing you
    when you're gone
    the face i came to know
    is missing too
    when you're gone
    the words i need to hear
    to always get me through the day
    and make it ok
    i miss you

    Frank Lucas , the drug lord

    Frank Lucas (born September 9, 1930 [1] in La Grange, North Carolina and raised in Greensboro, North Carolina.[2]) is a former heroin dealer, murderer, and organized crime boss in Harlem during the late 1960s and early 1970s. He was particularly known for cutting out middlemen in the drug trade and buying heroin directly from his source in Southeast Asia. Frank Lucas is popularly known for smuggling heroin from Thailand[1] using the coffins of dead American servicemen, [3] a claim his South Asian associate, Leslie "Ike" Atkinson denies. [4] He is the subject of the 2007 film American Gangster.

    Early life

    Lucas claims that the incident that sparked his motivation into the life of crime was witnessing his 12 year old cousin's murder at the hands of the KKK, for apparently "reckless eyeballing" (looking at a Caucasian woman), in Greensboro, North Carolina.[3]. He drifted through a life of petty crime until one particular occasion when he engaged in a fight with a former employer and, on advice of his mother, fled to New York.[3] In Harlem he indulged in petty crime and pool hustling before he was taken under the wing by gangster Bumpy Johnson.[3] His connection to Bumpy has come under some doubt, however. Lucas claimed to have been Johnson's driver for 15 years, although Johnson spent just 5 years out of prison before his death in 1968. And according to Johnson's widow, much of the narrative that Lucas claims actually belonged to another young hustler named Flash Walker, who lived with Bumpy and his family and later betrayed him.[5]

    Criminal career

    After Bumpy Johnson's death, Lucas traveled around and came to the realization that to be successful he would have to break the monopoly that the Italian mafia held in New York. Traveling to Southeast Asia, he eventually made his way to Jack's American Star Bar, an R&R hangout for black soldiers.[3] It was here that he met former U.S. Army sergeant Leslie "Ike" Atkinson, a country boy from Goldsboro, North Carolina, who happened to be married to one of Lucas' cousins, which made him as good as family. Lucas is quoted as saying, "Ike knew everyone over there, every black guy in the Army, from the cooks on up,"[3]

    Lucas denies putting the drugs in the corpses of American soldiers. Instead he flew in a North Carolina carpenter to Bangkok and:

    We had him make up 28 copies of the government coffins . . . except we fixed them up with false bottoms, big enough to load up with six, maybe eight kilos[6] . . . It had to be snug. You couldn't have shit sliding around. Ike was very smart, because he made sure we used heavy guys' coffins. He didn't put them in no skinny guy's . . ."
     
    — Frank Lucas[3]

    However, Atkinson, nicknamed "Sergeant Smack" by the DEA,[7] has said he shipped drugs in furniture, not caskets.[4] Whatever method he used, Lucas smuggled the drugs into the country with this direct link from Asia. Lucas said that he made US$1 million per day selling drugs on 116th Street.[3] Federal judge Sterling Johnson, who was special narcotics prosecutor in New York at the time of Lucas' crimes, called Lucas' operation "one of the most outrageous international dope-smuggling gangs ever, an innovator who got his own connections outside the U.S. and then sold the narcotics himself in the street." He had connections with the Sicilian and Mexican mobs, holding an enormous monopoly on the heroin market in Manhattan. In an interview with Lucas he said, "I wanted to be rich. I wanted to be Donald Trump rich, and so help me God, I made it."[3]

    Lucas only trusted relatives and close friends from North Carolina to handle his various heroin operations.[3] Lucas thought they were less likely to steal from him and be tempted by various vices in the big city. His heroin "Blue Magic" was 100% pure when shipped from Thailand and sold at 10% purity on the street.[1] In this direct quote from the article, Lucas was worth "something like $52 million", most of it in Cayman Islands banks. Added to this is "maybe 1,000 keys (kilograms), (2,200 pounds), of dope on hand" with a potential profit of no less than $300,000 per kilo (per 2.2 lb).

    This huge profit margin allowed him to buy property all over the country including office buildings in Detroit, and apartments in Los Angeles and Miami. He also bought a several-thousand-acre ranch in North Carolina on which he ranged 300 head of Black Angus cows, including a breeding bull worth $125,000.[3]

    Lucas rubbed shoulders with the elite in entertainment, politics, and crime, meeting Howard Hughes at one of Harlem's best clubs in his day. Though he owned several mink and chinchilla coats and other accessories, Frank Lucas much preferred to dress very casually and corporately as to not attract attention to himself.[8] He fathered seven children, including a daughter, Francine Lucas-Sinclair, and a son, Frank Lucas, Jr.[9] When he was arrested in the mid-1970s, all of Lucas' assets were seized.[8]

     Arrests and releases

    In January 1975, Frank Lucas' house in Teaneck, New Jersey was raided by a task force consisting of 10 agents from Group 22 of the U.S. Drug Enforcement Agency and 10 New York Police Department detectives attached to the Organized Crime Control Bureau (OCCB)[10]. In his house authorities found $584,683.[10] He was later convicted of both federal and New Jersey state drug violations. The following year he was sentenced to 73 years in prison. Once convicted Lucas provided evidence that led to more than 100 further drug-related convictions. For his safety in 1977 Frank Lucas and his family were placed in the witness protection program.[7] In 1981 after 5 years in prison his 40-year Federal term and 30-year state term were reduced to time served plus lifetime parole.[11] In 1984 he was caught dealing drugs again and was convicted for new rape violations and a parole violation. He was prosecuted and then later defended by detective Richie Roberts. He received a sentence of seven years and was released from prison in 1991.[12]

    Around 2005 Frank Lucas was involved in a car accident that broke his leg in two places and required him to use a wheelchair. During an interview with MTV in November 2007 Lucas talked about how, "I'll be up out of this doggone wheelchair, I guess, in about a month. I'll be glad to get rid of it, because I'm tired of this wheelchair."[8]

     Family

    Lucas married Julie, a homecoming queen from Puerto Rico (not Miss Puerto Rico as portrayed in the movie, American Gangster), and had seven children altogether. [8] The two often bought expensive gifts for each other including a coat that she paid $125,000 for and another $40,000 cash for a matching hat. [13] Julie was also jailed for her role in her husband's criminal enterprise, spending five years behind bars.[13]

    One of his sons, Frank Lucas, Jr, is a hip hop artist who now with his father have launched the Frank Lucas brand.[14] One of his daughters, Francine, entered the witness protection program with him in 1977 and has since started up a webpage Yellowbrickroads, with resources for the children of imprisoned parents.[7]

    Wanna know more? Watch the <American Gangster>.

    寻找愿意和我一起疯的人 / Searching whom may crazy as i am

    所有路过的人们:

       如果你喜欢电影

       如果你深爱电影

       如果你想用电影来讲述一些什么

       如果你拥有尚未降温的热情,尚未遗失的理想和尚未磨灭的动力

       当然

       如果你可以接受没有回报的付出

                 或注定失败的努力

                 或旁人无法理解的目光

                 或可能几乎原始化的拍摄制作过程

       请联系我

       让我们成就自己的电影.

       艾德伍德都可以,我们为什么不行? 

       QQ:66532088           MSN: wallrui_1985@hotmail.com

    -----------------------------------------------------------

    To all who may pass by:

    If u like movies

    If u fanaticize in it

    If u wanna say something though it

    If u still keep ur passion, ur dream and ur motivation.

    Of course

     If u do will accept no-return pay  

                    or destined failure

                    or dis-understanding

                    or stone-age style process

    Pls contact me

    Let us make some movies of our own

    Even Ed-Wood can do so, Y cannot us?

    QQ:66532088           MSN: wallrui_1985@hotmail.com

    一些电影

    关于一些电影

     

    一天看6部长片,代表什么?热爱,或是无聊?

    那是发生在上个星期六的事情.

     

    <美国派-6>

    除了扎堆的D SIZE 美女, 实在找不出这部片子的优点了.

    在床上看完,就当是早锻炼了.

     

    <艾德伍德>

    蒂姆波顿+约翰尼德普=史上最差导演的自传.

    谁说只有成功人士有资格为自己立传,我失败了,我也有权书写我的失败.

    等等,什么是失败?

     

    <我叫刘跃进>

    的确跃进.

    小人物的智慧,改变大人物的游戏.这样的片子最近很多.

    只是结尾我有点不喜欢.

    换成我拍,我会给跃进开的饭店一个近景,然后拉,,,全景结束电影, 字幕, 有人找上门,黑屏,继续字幕.

    ?,我俗.

     

    <大电影2.0>

    如果我是郭涛,我不会这么做.

    无后是小,失节是大~!!!!!

     

    <我是传奇>

    全人类面对未知并且超强悍的病毒,导致大规模歇菜,但总有个把人可能和上帝有点私交,就是能免疫.

    然后躲藏,然后寻找拯救世界的办法或是逃出升天的机会,然后得逞.

    影片往往会有以下场景:

    1.       病毒大规模爆发前的恐慌,人群混乱,逃散.

    2.       军队出现.

    3.       荒芜一人的曾经繁华的城市.

    4.       黑暗中的危险,化险为夷.

    5.       一个或是几个稍重要的配角死去,大多是当着主角的面死的.

    6.       劫后余生.

    好了,我们回来看这部我是传奇.虽然俗套,但是却依然能打动我.

    因为我也养狗, 5.

     

    <甜性涩爱>

    这个算是老片了.

    一对男女从有点相爱到很相爱,到非常相爱,到不是那么非常相爱,

    到有那么点不相爱,到不相爱,到又想相爱,到最后还是不再继续相爱.

    同时期韩国有很多以上套路的电影,不是在讲一个故事,而在记录一段过程.

    中间刻意或不刻意的加进矛盾,以表现出男女之间那点破事.

    这部不同点在于,我是先进着看,然后再完整的看.

    但怎么看,都不咋地.

    海洋

    这里的主人溺水了......
     
    在下沉的过程中学习游泳......
     
    合十......

    Transformers

     
    第一次在电影院叫了起来,可是不会有人理会.因为大家都在叫.
     
    以前没怎么看过变形金刚,只知道里面全是汽车人打来打去.
     
    直到看到大黄蜂的时候,我才发现,我的爱好又多了一样.
     
    这样的电影,我们不需要去管什么剧情,表演和内涵.
     
    看完以后,如果你觉得回家路上的汽车随时可能变身,那就对了.
     

    AVRIL

     
    GO AHEAD......

    MAKE MY DAY......

    我记忆中的这十六年

    1991年
    实在记不起开学前一天的感觉了,只记得开学是舅舅送我去的。老师让全班学习怎么坐,只有我的姿势错了。点名时没有我,因老师报的是我以前的名字--中间多了个“晓”字。
     
    1992年
    最喜欢我的班主任杨老师走了,据说后来做了空姐。新班主任来的那天,我一直以为杨老师会和她交代一下我是最乖的那个。做早操的时候听老师聊天,说我是聪明的,从那以后开始相信,我是聪明的。
     
    1993年
    二年级结束的时候,因为一笔冰棍的债没还清,债主同学找到了来开家长会的奶奶,结果是回家后被我妈结结实实揍了一顿。三年级的班主任是个老女人,喜欢把手放在男孩子的脖子里,现在想想,比较变态。
     
    1994年
    四年级的班主任终于来了--徐小平,变态!她接班的第一天开始施展淫威。这样的人能做老师,教育体制的悲哀。
     
    1995年
    被小徐同志忽悠到她家被她进行辅导,实际上就是给她钱,自己做作业。这段时间想起来真的很黑暗。一同学从家偷了10块钱,给了我2块,花完后被揭发,一顿暴揍。
     
    1996年
    生命中第一个不及格,56分。进入六年级,分班了,三个班并成了两个,我原来的教室废弃不用。没事的时候就会坐在那被堆满了废旧桌椅的教室里,发呆。
     
    1997年
    考初中前一个星期撞坏了4颗门牙,落榜,被分配到了一个很差的初中。TITANIC上映。初中第一学期得了考了年级第二,妈妈很高兴,不过也成了我以后的魔咒。
     
    1998年
    第一次和人打架,输了。第二次和人打架,还是输了。以后不和人打架了。第一次放学路上被人敲诈,1块5。
     
    1999年
    考试得了年级14名,回来妈妈给了我一个耳光。开始打篮球。第三辆自行车被偷。开始接触化学,和同学做了个液体炸弹,四个人趴在操场上等爆炸,结果炸弹变成了汽油灯。
     
    2000年
    考入省中,但是成绩还是全校第二名。但是物理成绩出色,成为了高中的物理课代表。进入高中的第一个月摔断了左手,断手的外号由此而来,在打上石膏后的第18天,我拖着废手又上了球场。
     
    2001年
    高一的一次考试,我得了全班最后第二,江龟得了最后第一。结果我这个物理课代表和他那个团支书被撤职,然后罚跑。这一年的5月我去了趟上海,在火车站前的麦当劳坐了会,以后的很长一段时间,我都会一个人去上海,去那坐会。
     
    2002年
    再次分班,哥几个又分在了一起。迎来我至今为止我最喜欢的班主任。开始听周杰伦,并试图在全校元旦晚会上组队演唱,结果当然是第一轮海选被淘汰。不过哥几个还是靠演摇滚混混上了台。
     
    2003年
    高考前3个月,我考了全班倒数第二。去打桌球把人家台子戳穿。高考前一天和哥几个喝了一瓶干白和一瓶威士忌。考出了在别人看来超水平,在自己看来实在丢人的成绩。来到南京。这年的夏天很灿烂,冬天很冷。我用一夜的苦等换来了悲剧的开演。
     
    2004年
    糜烂的大二生活,发疯一样的看电影。徘徊于人群中,记忆中这是被我挥霍的一年,一无所获。
     
    2005年
    拿到驾照后的一个月里出了三次车祸,最后一次差点让我定格在了20岁。开始懂了很多东西,明白去释怀和放手。家里人相继进了医院,感觉到了肩上的重量。
     
    2006年
    雅思,GMAT,报关员,六级。全年似乎都在忙这些东西。大四上到了,生活节奏一下子块了起来。大学中最充实的一年。
     
    2007年
    做好了所有的准备,最终还是决定不去法国了,留在南京的一家公司。可能很多年以后,我会后悔。回头看看,我曾后悔过,现在也正在为一些事后悔着。感受更多的是时间的流逝和生活的无可奈何。大学毕业。却仍在用幼稚的行为背负男人和责任的重量。

    无题

     
    通常都不知道题目写什么好,通常都是等写完了文字,才知道
     
    自己想写些什么。
     
    干脆就不要题目了吧。
     
    站在了一段路的终点之前,人们总会习惯性的往前望望,向后看看。
     
    前面一片迷雾,后面一座森林。
     
    我们忘记了林中的荆棘密布,忘记了毒蛇和猛兽,留恋那株没有采摘的花,那顶遗失的帽子。
     
    我们不愿走了,企图放慢脚步,然后被推推搡搡着前行。
     
    时常会回到一些地方,看一些文字,听过客的故事,寻找
     
    一种过去的感觉。
     
    知道,那已经消失在了过去的某个夜晚,某座大楼的楼梯间或是公共车站。
     
    用手指轻轻拨去墙上的字,留了道道抓痕,渗血,如此美丽。
     
    都还是孩子,永远都是孩子。
     
    这样的感情很微妙,那是一种不想再见,不再想念,不再挂念,却因突然的一种思绪,被拉回到时间的起点,然后开始寻找气味,踪迹,筛选记忆,然后继续那段愤怒,痛苦,却依然不想再见,然后平静,沉淀,等待下一次的激起的感觉。
     
    好安静的感觉,这个时候只有自己,不需要开灯,很好。
     
    我们会继续走着,继续回头看着,好多情景已经记不得了,但有时脑子里会闪过很多东西,明明知道从未发生,却如此熟悉。
     
    闭上眼睛,然后睁开,时间回到————......
     
    回到哪里?
     
    做过一个梦,想再爬上那座山,找回那把锁。
     
    4个年头过去了,我变了。
     

    书上看来的一些东西

     
    “当你年老时,请记住你还有另一双手。一只用来帮助你自己,一只用来帮助别人。”----- 奥黛丽 赫本
     
    “如果你获得了成功,表演是一份人人羡慕的美差。假使你失败了,那将是一件比得皮肤病还可怕得事。”----- 马龙 白兰度
     
    “他们来看我得唯一理由是因为我知道人生是伟大得。”----- 克拉克 盖博
     
    “你要相信自己,这就是秘诀。即使我在孤儿院或沿街要饭得时候,我都认为自己是世界上最出色的演员。”----- 查理 卓别林
     
    “我从不相信一个不喝酒的男人。”----- 约翰 韦恩
     
    “咬我的从来不是狗,而是人。”----- 玛丽莲 梦露
     
    “人人都想成为加里 格兰特,连我自己都想。”----- 加里 格兰特
     
    “我只有两种演技,抽烟的,和不抽烟的。”----- 亨弗莱 鲍嘉
     
    “我将成为一名伟大的女演员。”----- 费雯 丽
     
    “在戏台上,我比在其他任何地方都更为生气盎然,但我带上台的一切都来自街头。”----- 阿尔 帕西诺
     
    “我并不会感到忧虑,因为我们都会老去。”----- 英格丽 褒曼
     
    “如果我还能再活一次的话,我将不会对我的一生作任何改变。”----- 秀兰 邓波儿
     
    “爸爸曾经对我说,想做什么就去做吧,别担心。所以,我们要努力去实现自我的价值。”----- 克林克 伊斯特伍德
     
    “成功的唯一好处是我不再担心死亡。一旦你成为明星,你其实已经死了。”----- 达斯汀 霍夫曼
     
     
     

    狗样生活...其一

    一开始的很长一段时间,我没有名字,也不知道自己的生日.
     
    每天的目标就是活下去,熬过初生的那段危险期.
     
    然后和我的弟弟一起被送走.
     
    可能是因为我是白色,又不爱干净的缘故吧,家里人都喜欢我弟弟.
     
    没有所谓啦,其实大家对我也不错,知足啦.
     
    就这么快乐的生活着,直到那场不期而至的大病.
     
    我没办法走路,没办法吃东西,每天只能拉,只能吐,只能吐,只能拉.
     
    这边的风俗,狗死在家里是很不吉利的,我知道,那天不远了.
     
    可主人的孩子不肯扔下我,执意要带我去看病.
     
    是因为我可怜,还是因为我有魅力?
     
    是因为我有魅力吧.
     
    现在我能在这里讲我的故事,说明那次送医,我活下来了.
     
    不仅是活下来了,我变的能吃了.
     
    现在我的个子是我弟弟的两倍,打架的时候,我很轻松的把他踩在脚下.
     
    然后我就成为了这一代的狗中之霸.
     
    不管是认识的,不认识的,比我大很多的,比我小很多的.
     
    我都要上去示威一下,做老大的感觉,真好.
     
    只是有一点我不太满意,太爱撒尿的缘故吧,我只能每天被栓着.
     
    无所谓啦,我很知足的.
     
    对于我们来说,生活很简单.
     
    活着,吃饱,领地,母狗.
     
    (未完待续......)

    羡世

    你知道那种感觉,你知道。

    长久以来,你以为它已离你远去。

    是什么让你妥协,是什么让你止步不前,是什么,

    让你如此麻木。

     

    疲乏,睁不开眼睛。

    艰难的支撑起自己,身体不规则的晃动。

    向前。

    被锋利的刀子划过的感觉,

    自下而上,蔓延开来,渗透,穿过骨头。

     

    很难名状的心情,我知道事情只能如此。

    在脑子里列举自己能做的一切,然后一一否定。

    如你所说,世界上最远的距离。

    在这里。

     

    可能时间褪去,被放大的终将被还原。

    被烙下的终将伴随左右。

     

    我无法争辩,无法诉说,无法挽留,无法放弃。

    如同站在涨潮的海水中,

    任由自己被慢慢的淹没。

    那种被压迫,被束缚,被捆绑的感觉,无法释怀。

     

    慢慢的,失去反抗的力量,

    失去挣扎的欲望,

    失去自己。

    The Illusionist

    Make me disappear......
     
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